To A Girl

How long has it been since last I saw your face?
How long has it been since last I made you smile?
When last I left you, you stood in tears
Not wanting to be left alone.

But that is how I left you, alone.
I had to drive home to life and stress and complexity.
My choice was made, though I could have stayed
For one day more with you.

Since then what has happened?
Honestly, I wish I knew.
I never meant to cause you hurt.
Even now I only wish for your happiness.

I’ve grown since then.
I hope you have, too.
As I look back now…
Honestly it’s rather amusing.

How foolish we were.
So young.
So quick.
Was there any hesitation?

Perhaps there was.
Perhaps there should have been.
But you were my first true love.
And that is something I would never wish otherwise.

It’s funny, though.
You always preferred white wine
But I always brought red.
I guess I know you more now than then.

You were mine for so brief a time.
But I’ve been yours for so much longer.
I never gave up, to be honest,
Even though we both moved on.

But now I see you.
Thriving, succeeding, smiling.
You’ve met someone else, so good for you.
I’d not have it any other way.

How long has it been since I wanted to say
How much I loved you? How beautiful you were?
But we’ve moved on. Can you blame me
For being glad you’re no longer mine?